Blogs — seasons

I feel like all my posts and emails lately have at least started with some sort of apology or explanation as to why I haven't been here and I hate that for me. The business bitch in me says I don't need to explain anything, but the human in me suspects that other people might be feeling the same? I've got two-ish posts in my mind but I can't seem to get them out until I say how weird it is to be here and that I miss you all but also I just don't have the desire to vlog...